The last few days have been rough. I am not going to lie. Quarantine 2020 can get the best of you, or you can get the best from it. These past few days it’s been kicking my asssssss!

I still stand by my original posts regarding me loving the time I get to see my children spend together. People have called me out on that, as I complain being home with three (one of which is disabled) is tough as hell. However, I still find it so heart warming to see the way they interact as a trio. It’s not always smiles and laughter, but memories are always being made and I am so incredibly thankful to be witnessing that in firsthand.

Holy shit though….individually, as their mother, they have all given me a run for my money. CJ has decided that schoolwork is optional, and almost every time I ask him to do something he provides me with an alternative that he thinks is better. How about you do what I say? That’s your only option. We battle constantly and he knows he’s wearing me down. He’s a smart little man. I know all you moms out there are feeling your own kind of stress being home with the kiddos. We keep on keeping on because we have no choice but it doesn’t make it easier.

Ella’s mood has been so inconsistent. Some days she will spend hours hanging out with us laughing and playing, and other days after breakfast she will scream and cry until I bring her up to her room to watch tv and chill. The other day her meltdown lasted a half hour. I have not seen her that upset in a really long time. I think being home and not in her normal routine is taking its toll. She’s moving less and doesn’t get as much social interaction as she does at school with her classmates and aides. I am not really sure how much of what’s going on she understands, if any. What I do know is that she sure is loving her brother time. No one can make her smile like those two goofballs can. I have gotten some amazing pictures.

Jack is in non stop motion. He might very well be the most exhausting of the three. He is into everything and has perfected standing, holding onto whatever he can find to help him up. One minute he wants to be held, the next minute he wants down. He sees CJ and he can’t get to him fast enough. He plays with everything that isn’t a child approved toy, and you can’t take your eyes off of him for two seconds. He’s a maniac. I am not complaining at all, as I know all too well what it’s like to not see these milestones. It doesn’t make my days any less exhausting though. Oh, let’s not forget to mention Jack’s little stretch of waking up every two hours at night. Fatigue is not my friend.

Looking back, one of my favorite things over the last few days has been reconnecting with people I have not spoken to in years/months. It’s funny how random thoughts will pop into my head or something I see will trigger a memory. I have sent so many texts to people to check in or catch up, and every single one of them has been returned, followed by meaningful conversations. While this is a time of great uncertainty it’s also a time for people to come together. It’s been nice. I hope it continues.

This daily living is our new normal for the foreseeable future. Some days suck, but I try and remember this won’t be forever. Tomorrow is always another day! Just a reminder, check in on your friends and family. They might not be okay!