These last 6+ months have been filled with more unknowns that I can even count. While I realize I can’t have control of everything, I was starting to feel like I had control over NOTHING.
Just when I felt we couldn’t get kicked down anymore, I began feeling myself getting lifted up. Things that we had been fighting so hard for were suddenly falling into place. Positive things started happening and the fog was lifting. Instead of taking blind steps forward, there are glimmers of light leading the way.
This has been a season of change, and for our family that means many new, and scary, things. We will be saying goodbye to the past and moving into the future with hopeful and fresh eyes.
Steve’s thumb has been healing nicely and he should be returning to work soon. CJ will finally be able to head back to school with a full class and more structured routine. Jack is starting a two year old program at a local gym and will finally get to interact with kiddos his age twice a week.
Our sweet girl seems to be on the right track with her meds and come September will be starting a new school. One we hope will bring her the full support and resources she needs to soar. She was given a full time nurse at school (FINALLY) and we have some new equipment at home that will allow us to better handle any emergent situations should they arise (fingers crossed they never do). With Dani getting a full time job and Amanda returning to college, we got incredibly lucky and were able to find someone new to come work with Ella. She will be starting very soon and is the sweetest young lady.
As for me, I am a work in progress. I decided it is time to take better care of myself both physically and emotionally. I started walking, which for me is huge, and am looking into finding a therapist to work through what has been going on. There has been a lot to process and I want to make sure I am doing that in the best way possible. Ella going back to school is giving me a ton of anxiety. My heart tells me it will be great, but the mama in my will always worry.
Mid-September will also bring complete chaos to the house as well. We are having some major renovations done in preparation for an exciting new visitor to the homestead. It will for sure add some more stress but my hope is by the end of the year everything will be settled and in place. It will totally be worth it.
Nothing here is ever black and white and I almost think we would be bored if it were. Steve and I often crawl into bed at night and look at each other with exhaustion, wondering if things will ever slow down. Despite it all, we never forget to count our blessings. We are here for it all and we shall prevail.
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